I'm not a good adviser when it comes to...

Ada seseorang itu yang tengah melalui kesedihan yang terlampau lampau. kesedihan yang sama aku lalui almost half years yang lalu. I have no idea what to tell that person how to be cool with it.
bukan cuma dia tapi my others friends also have been through almost the same thing.


tak akan lah aku nak kata,

"Rileks sajaa. lama lama lupa lah tu okay. :) "

lama lama lupa? aku pun tak lupa lagi how can I say something like that?


or bagitahu,

"Kalau dia baik dia tak kan tinggalkan kau. Dah lah. Tak usah susah hati sebab orang jahat cenggitu. "

jahat? memang boleh kata macam tu tapi lepas tu sama gak perahsaan tu kan. buruk macam mana pun, cinta itu kan buta. sendawa kuat kuat pun nampak macho. kentut bau busuk pun jadi wangi. fikiran kurang waras pun nampak normal. ahakss..



mungkin boleh kata,

"Dia tu tak layak walau untuk setitis air mata kau tau."

setitis air mata? aku pun dah perhabiskan berbaldi baldi air mata. macam mana nak kata kat dia jangan nangis.

"Why don't you kill yourself?"

bagusnya nasihatkann. memang berhasil. you will completely forget about them sebab ur brain is DEAD. not only your brain. you also will be dead.  -,-

lihatlah pandanglahhh....

I am not good in giving an advice. when people tell me about their broken hearted, I can be a listener and I always have a pleasure to hear it but to make they feel good with giving advice...I don't know how to do it. 

as for me, if I feels like to throw things or scream or knock my head, I will 

• take a bath then nangis. after that pampered myself
• solat and pray to Allah and while doa tu crying like gila gila punya leebih dari biasa
• baca Yassin sebab orang kata ayatnya ubat penenang jiwa
• having some conversation yang boleh buat rasa ini chill and happy

sangat sedikit kan bendanya..

maybe you can share with me how to go through all the things yang susah nak keluar dari kepala ni so I can tell my other friends. 

that's all I guess.

Assalamualaikum. :)

I miss..

I miss to smile everyday.

I miss to try to be better.

I miss to type a better entry.

I miss to sing a happy song.

I miss to act like a kid.

I miss the old me.

I miss to have a call until 3-4 hours.

I miss to talk like the conversation have no ended.

I miss to heard everything nice about me even it is not true.

I miss to be watched.

I miss to complain my bad day.

I miss to have a sweet text.

I miss...

Nak balik dahh..

Barang dah mula dikemas sikit. sikit je lah. tak banyak. kerajinan belum kunjung tiba lagi. tunggu last day paperr baru dia mengunjung. kemas awal awal pun buat apa. sikitt pun tak terasa ekksaited nak balik sebab cuti kejap je. HAHA :D

sadis.  :|



disebabkan cuti tersangat pendek jadi aku pun tak ada niat nak keluar bersiar siar menikmati panorama yang indah dekat OU or Sunway or Econsave dengan rakan rakan.
Econsave??? ahakss. dan apa yang indah sangat tu? entah.


kalau siapa siapa nak ajak date ke sila buat appointment awal awal yea sebab 'artis' ni sangat sibuk waktu cuti ini. banyak benda nak kena buat. sangat sibuk di banggunan 'office' dia yang berbumbung merah yang didepannya ada pokok mangga tu. *rumah aku lah tu. -,- *

didepan banggunan 'office'.
tak boleh tahan tengok Cicot angkat kening sebelah berlagak TheRock.
HAHAHA :D

by da wayy, ada orang ingat saya masih in relationship dengan kekasih lamaa! mai nak kasi peringat sikit,
ceq solo ja la ni. senang sikit nak bergerak. okay?  :)

Senyum dalam mimpi.

sebelum tidur kita senyum sambil bisik sendiri.
kita nak bangun penuh dengan semangat, kita kata pada diri.
kita nak lupakan segala yang berlaku pada masa yang lalu.
kalau orang lain boleh buat kenapa pula kita tak mampu?

esok paginya kita bangun kita cuba panggil semangat.
tapi yang datang menyahut..
cerita yang lalu.
senyuman tak menjadi, hati pula jadi sayu.

kita tutup mata semula,
kita lena sekali lagi.


dalam mimpi kita senyum kembali.
kita dapat mimpi bahagiaaa sekali.


kita bangun, senyum mengikut sekali.
tapi kita fikir kembali.
kenapa cuma dalam mimpi?

senyum...
tak sanggup bertahan lama lagi.

kenapa kita cuma senyum dalam mimpi?
kenapa bahagia cuma dalam mimpi?

macam kita terbang dalam mimpi.
itulah dia.
dia mimpi. dia bukan realiti.

Two Decades of Me.

kenapakan kenapakan?
umur aku dah dua dekad.

HAHA! silly question to ask. -,-


I was born on First of March 1992. lagi sikit nak terkeluar masa leap day.
nenek kata saya baik je masa kecik kecik. senyap je. shomey shomeyy jeee. ahaks. :D


everyone will said they are not a good kid masa kecik kecik dulu. begitu juga saya.
tapi bro, itulah sebabnya..
betapa bahagia jadi budak budak ni. :DD
betapa sakit kepalanya jadi orang dewasa ni.  -___________-'

start sekolah rendah dah mula memikul tugas sebagai seorang kakak. saya memang kakak yang taiko and gangster. ask my sistahh if you don't believe me. ciyes punye cerita neyy.
dan kembali jadi seorang malu malu kucing bila depan orang lain. agagaga~



masa sekolah menengah semua orang sibuk bebenar nak habiskan sekolah. nak free!!! tak nak mengadap muka cikgu dah. most of us have this spirit to go to school not because of the exciting feeling to learn a new chapter dalam silibus. tapi sebab nak bertepuk bertampar dengan kawan.
including me.  :)

and this is the most TOP SECRET.
masa tingkatan dua dah ada prince charming. he is one of the reason lah kenapa semangat nak datang sekolah. dan juga reason kenapa sukaaa sangat tengok kat luar tingkap bila masa rehat senior. harharharrr! dah tak jadi secret dah. ommaii..
biasalah masa tu budaks lagi.

dan sikalang tengah belajar course Computer Science which I don't know should I feel regret for taking this course or not sebab ada Calculus. -,-
joking joking. everything that happened have their own reason. remember that Aqilah. :)

tidak tahu nak nulis apa lagi sebab feeling nak menaip tiba tiba dah habis. 

akhir perenggan..

kadang orang tak kan boleh mengetahui kita dengan dua tiga kali bicara.

tak kan boleh memahami kita melalui kesukaan. 

tak kan boleh kenal kita melalui penulisan. 

sedangkan tuan punya badan pun kadang tak memahami diri dia sendiri.

Assalamualaikum. :)

I wish I have that kind of Fameileyy.

Assalamualaikum.

Nak paksa ni. nak paksa tengok video ni.
no lah. I'm just kidding. :)

video credit to Maria Elena.






Yeahhh I know sekarang bukan tengah raya pun nak post video cenggini but what I'm trying to strees here is, *dah kuar dah omputih berterabor diaa*  if you watch this video masa tengah tengah tu you will see yang diaorang sangat sangattt lah sporting. tak perlu tengok tengah tapi tengok mula mula pun dah tahu. gila sporting nak miming lagu raya.


I'am soo jealous with them because I always wanted that kind of sporting family. bukan lah sporting bermaksud kena miming macam diaorang. -,-
Saudara mara yang you know macam mana right. yang treated us like a friends yang macam family sangat rapat. tak ada seorang pun tak terkecuali.

yang muda hormat yang tua.
yang tua sayang muda.

how nice is that. :)



lepas tu tangkap gambar ramai ramai yang macam gambar hudus-sporting-gitu, after that upload masuk facebook then tulis caption, 'I won't change them for anything. :)'
sweet kan? sweet kan?  :)

terlebih berangan. anganan yang tidak termampu untuk jadi kenyataan.

people nowadays. they have their own business. dunia ni antara dunia dengan diri diaorang je. terlalu susah untuk diaorang memikirkan dunia, diri sendiri, family.
masing masing dah besar tahu jaga diri kannnn.

rindu masa zaman kecik kecik masa semua tak kenal dunia lagi. :')

BFF. Life is teaching us.

I used to have someone to be there when I need. but then like you can see on my oldest entries. full with emotional things and stuff.

I hope you don't mind if I become emotional like always and write anything that I feel one because I just finished watched two movies.

'13 Going 30'

and

'16 Wishes'

both of the story have the happy ending but the weird thing is I'm the one who being emotional.  -,-

the story. it is completely about the BFF thingy. The sadest thing that I want to share with is I don't feel like I have one. BFF. I don't have it. We all know that BFF is all about

someone that love us
someone that we can depend with
someone that always be right there when we need them
someone that will go through all the thick and thin with us
someone that won't leaving us
someone that will wake we up if we do the wrong thing
and the list is too long and full with a good things


my mum said maybe it was my mistake and I agree with her. I didn't take care of our relationship. that is why it ended like this.

I lost my way, have no one to share with, I get angry with myself, can't forget any one of the memories and it keep come to me, got such a long thinking, and many else. sometime I feel like, am I going to be mad?


on my last birthday I feels disappointed. I thought it is because of the four test that makes me feel like that. I feel tired, I didn't go to my room after the last test on that night. I stood on the stairs and sat. I feel sad. I called my friends. I thought maybe they can cheer me up. Hanum got me. we have some gossip here and there but the smile didn't stay longer.

but actually I know the reason but I keep deny it because, it really disappoint me.

• You know about the karma. 
• You also know about the sentences, 'We won't realise until we lost it'.
• You know that people can change.
• You know about, 'You have to pay the price if you brake it.'

You know people that really love us won't let any one of the list 'You know..' to be happen to you.

Life is teaching us and Allah will always be with us.
I am in process to get over it.

Assalamualaikum. :)