March 3, 2011

We are who we are.

orang yang kenal aku from sekola rendah will know how do i look like. 
i was soo NERD
i mean. really really nerd. and then bile aku start pegi sekola menengah, my nerd gettin less. when i was in form 2, i know this guy and i think i really like him. i think i fall in love with him. almost half girls in my school is his adek angkat. then because of my feeling towards him, i make a decision to break the word, NERD. at that time, i want him to look at me not because of who i am but because of my look. that is really a wrong thing to do right?

after almost 5 years i guess.. i make a desicion to forget about him. i always put him as a reason why i want to break up with all my ex. every time when i know that he break up with his gf i was like, "HAHAHA !". mesti la aku gembira en. da aku minad kat die. so last month i delete his fb. trying to stop being a stalker. i am happy to do that !   :)   i guess..    :(   hahaha..just kidding.

so, today im standing here with my hurt leg, (hurt leg? =.=' ) with some of my friends said that i've changed. hilang nerdy tu, less fat, but i think i still fat, no spectacles, wearing contact lens, start wearing make-up and bla bla bla. Yasmin sayang said that i looks beautiful but i dont think so. sangad sangad ta true. i think Yasmin lah yang cantek. :) kawan kawan ku. Teah teah, Eqa bubble, Qhis, Hanum sayang, Tania, Shikin, Mardzati, Nana, Aqilah Akmal, Linda, Anati, Farra, Liyana, Anna, Fazlina, Shikin Hez, aa... ramai sangad na senaraikan. korang sume GORGEOUS! sometimes i am a bit jealous with korang korang. korang terlalu cantekk ! senyuman korang. gelak tawa. so ketahui lah bahawasanya korang tesangad pretty. :DD 

theres a day when someone asking me, 

                              "macam mana dari nerd tu bole jadi cantek macam nie?

so macam biasa laa aku tolak statement 'cantek' tu jaoh jaoh. then baru tepikir tentang perkara dari nerd kpd sekarang tu setelah sekian lamaa. aku jawab sebab nye adalah kerana seseorang itu. so i want to make some correction here. i believe that aqilah lala today here not because of him. but because of myself. andd i love me. i love myself ! 



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